you're the ____ to my ____

Because I'm bored, and Okami bullied me into it.

Also, I forgot how much fun cramming manga can be sometimes. Unless it's Persona 3. Then it just gets kind of confusing.

Edit: On second thought... I think that I'm the one who is confused. I don't remember reading some of these chapters at all. MAL Updater, you lied to me!

Oh, wow. I really don't post here as often as I should for keeping tabs on memories.

Well, first of all:

Happy Birthday, Nica!

Then yours is coming up soon, isn't it Sami? Maybe I should just start calling you that instead of "Rei" like I have been.

Let's see... I'm still reading The Witchblade comic series and up to #51, with The Runaways and The Young Avengers waiting in the queue, no thanks to discedo. I'm mostly grinding through it though. It's not as interesting to me as The Darkness was, which is kinda strange... it seems to have more depth, in a way. But that could just be because of the protagonist. (Anyway, this is just me thinking out loud as usual.)

On the manga side of things, I'm reading Fairy Tail and I love it, along with the old manwha Chronicles of the Cursed Sword. Both library copies. Unfortunately, this meant that the latter had some pages ripped out of it by some little prick, and that left me feeling kind of frustrated. Mostly because I missed whole plot-turning explanations because of it, but really, in general. You shouldn't do that kind of crap. Then, I know there's some other stuff I'd like to catch up on, like Kuroshitsuji, Hetalia and finishing Trigun Maximum, but I've just been so lazy about it lately. Help!

Old Del Rey ads are making me want to read Yozakura Quartet and Dragon's Eye so badly though. Sniffle. Why do you mock me this way?

And then I get randomly depressed, my whole sleeping schedule screws up, and I fall behind in my old RPGs that I should have finished playing ages ago (i.e. Persona 3, SMT: DS - Raidou Kuzunoha vs. The Soulless Army, Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World and Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core) and get bed hair in Animal Crossing: City Folk while all the flowers I meticulously planted before have died and faded over half of the town. Whoop!

I need a break. My brain needs a break.

The timing of this is all kinds of unfortunate, and probably not going to make me feel too hot in the morning. If there are replies, anyway.

I'm not discrediting your love either, guys. I'm just too self-conscious and the other stuff is making for an unhealthy distraction.

Okay. I'm done with my brooding, and I've finished a story arc in the Witchblade. Also, Geoff, I feel like I've unintentionally offended you somehow. Correct me if I'm wrong.

Edit: It's been sorted out. I'm a paranoid doofus.

Cripes... The writers for The Darkness are pretty cruel, aren't they? Jackie Estacado keeps getting so screwed over by fate that it's barely even funny anymore.

That, and I'm not that fond of Jorge Lucas' style so much either, but... meh. So it goes. See Molly? I'm almost completely caught up! ♥

Man, I want that compendium and a Playstation 3 so bad. But they aren't just going to buy themselves. I need to face the music and start submitting some applications. I'm not looking forward to another summer of just sitting on my duff finishing homework alone. But that still needs to be done too.

Lately, the weather outside has been pretty cloudy. I think we're expecting more rain. I wouldn't mind that as long as I'm indoors. It's one of my favorite sounds, after all. The sound of heavy raindrops falling on the trees outside, the windows or the roof. It's just so relaxing.



Definitely any place that is steeped in pitch black darkness. I used to be afraid of the dark when I was little, and my imagination still runs away with me sometimes when I'm stuck in that kind of situation. Strange sounds among all this would probably send me into a panic even faster.

Flist, you're enabling manga again. Mostly stuff that I need to get up off my ass and catch up on.

But I need new anime to watch! I'd say games too, but I currently lack the funds and find playing the same old ones strangely enjoyable. Not to mention that I have quiet a few left to finish. As always.

I don't know if I'll be able to go to Otakon this year either. I haven't looked at the web site, but I'm not really that interested in going to that big place on my own. I don't think that I'd want to go there with my dad again, and I'm not really that in tune with any friends that I know who would be swinging over that way. Sorry, online friends. I've learned from past experience that loosely organizing a meeting is very very hard. Especially if I don't even have a clue of who I'm looking for among all those strange faces. That and the five hours long ride, uncomfortable crowded feeling and insufficient funds are demotivating.

On that note, does anyone know about some of the conventions in Ohio? The comic book shop had an ad for Matsuri Con, but I couldn't find it in the car after we got home.

By the way... kilraaj and the Malice plot at discedo are enabling Shadow Hearts, and riven_008 is quietly urging me on to finish reading The Darkness and start Witchblade. Get out.

Oh my god. Dying.

Not getting enough sleep last night, and then being made to get up early to keep an eye on the little ones while my parents go sing at the church is not favorable. I felt dead on my feet, even with the coffee. Then when things had settled down, I still don't think I got enough hours in to make up where I lacked.

Sigh. Why do I do this to myself?

Anyway, I'm troubled. I'm having issues with my Soul-muse, but I don't think I can really afford a hiatus to canon review or anything. Not with Asura and the Malice plot going on, anyway. I guess I just feel the most guilty for falling behind the pace of things and with the others. I don't want to be like most of the people I ranted on in the past, you know? So what I need is a good thinktank. Something that can keep me motivated and have him be more outgoing. thunderstorm_96 has offered some cool suggestions, one of them being the boys of Shibusen getting together for some bromance shenanigans. But if any of you guys from discedo have any ideas, then don't be shy!

Other than that, I think I'm just having some motivation issues in general. I still have some important work to finish up, and the interest is lacking. It sucks. But I think I can beat that down a little with some novel reading, so we'll see.

I am starting to crave a part-time job too. Saving money for new games, consoles, cons, leftover expenses and security would be nice. - I'm still nervous as I ever was about it though.

Edit: For a lift. ♥

♥♡♥♡♥♡ THE ROLEPLAY LOVE MEME ♥♡♥♡♥♡

Oh, man. What a weekend.

Between Wednesday and Sunday, I had to put up with the boredom and cramped feeling of being stuck in a car for at least 1½ to 2 hours. Both ways. It's one of those times where the end justifies the mean so much more. But I did get to see my baby newborn nephew that way, and that leaves me with no regrets at all. He can't be more than a few days old already.

( Here are the facts... )

I have pictures uploaded onto my computer, and I'll throw them into Photobucket or ImageShack for anyone who really wants to see him. I still feel weird about it, and so you'll have to excuse the shyness on my part.

Other than that, it's just back to the old grind. I have assignments to finish for the summer, and plenty of books to read. Lately, I'm feeling brain cramped for ideas. I'm really hoping that will change sooner than later.

I started reading the Stone Ocean arc of Jojo's Bizarre Adventure after finishing Golden Wind. Rolling up to the ending of that arc was insane, and dammit Araki! Stop killing off all the characters I really like, okay? Not just one, but two of them. Jesus. Getting into Stone Ocean is a total blast though. I can't wait to find more time to read through it some more, though... some of the art I'm seeing on Safebooru makes me want to go back to Diamond is Unbreakable.

You know... that word always reminds me of:



But why does that manga always have to be so hard to find? Sigh...

I'm taking a test run with the grill today in making a cheeseburger and hot dog for dinner tonight. My parents are at their weekly choir rehearsal, and so that leaves me to my own devices. Dad pretty much told me everything that I needed to know, so... here goes nothing! Hopefully I won't end up catching my hair on fire or something equally disastrous.

In other news, #$%^! I love this weather, but the house centipedes are crawling around the inside of the house again. Uuuugh!! Save me!

Therapy session starts in... 24 minutes as of this typing.

It was postponed a week due to a scheduling conflict on her side. But I haven't been sleeping well, eating well (most days), feeling kind of sore and achy in my stomach, re-thinking my life and thinking over my schoolwork more than I'm content with.

I have such butterflies. No one ever likes hearing the bad news.

Meanwhile, three more episodes to go of Revolutionary Girl Utena, and then more reviewing because I'm worried the developmental changes are going to screw with my head. App's in because I have no self-control.

There's a Raidou Kuzunoha reserve in discedo. ...Squee!

I'm quite sure that I'm having my appointment at the optometrist today, which means the return of gas-permeable hard contact lenses. - Whoo!
They can be itchy and a pain sometimes, but I'm getting tired of always cleaning the lenses of these glasses. It's a small sacrifice to pay.

In the meantime, I confessed to disbar about something concerning to me. I'm still nervous this minute about it, and this week has been stressing enough! Thank you for listening to me, as well as giving me your thoughts.

For me, it is a highly humiliating fault that I have been experiencing for... what? At least two semesters now. Whenever something that ordinary students can finish with enough effort and concentration comes up, and I fail for whatever rhyme or reason, to complete it. That has to say something more than what all the therapy in the world can solve. Because I'm not stupid. But man, am I honest to goodness really afraid of talking to my mother about my profound thoughts on a change in career plans. What else do I have to fall back on? Nothing. Only my skills, and those are a big blur. Not even my career counselor could really help me identify what I really want to do with my life.

Whew. Cripes... It feels like I've been going through a lot of mood swings this week. Mostly on the negative swing. I haven't really been able to get into the games I'm into with full enthusiasm. Just the occasional bites. That makes me really, really nervous. I think that, uh, is also feeding into the need to escape into a different mindset for a change. But what's new makes me nervous for obvious reasons, because it is new and untested. My mind keeps drifting into a worst-case scenario, and that paralyzes me. I don't want to fail, I don't want to bring people down, and I especially don't want to bring myself down.

( Currently interested in... )

Writing is turning into a heard means of escapism for the moment. I need a pick-me-up, before I start bitching about how sick I am of some of the romance outside of my own. Those kinds of thoughts just make me feel really lame.